Time

Hold your breathe
And Hide my heart
If time sees us together
Captivated eyes and long conversations
Will turn to sudden goodbyes
I plead with time to forget your face in my eyes
It’s a foolish endeavor
Time is a race I only win when you are away
It ticks faster than the words that fall from our lips
Could captivated eyes ever cheat time?
Make a moment last forever as if we were apart
I plead with time to let me win when we are together
I know that that moment would mean forever
I guess I must just be satisfied
And know that loving you means
That this life will be over before I can say your name
Oh how hours of conversation only lead to longer goodbyes
And now I am left wondering if time isn’t really the devil in disguise

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My world is filled with tears
As I swim round in all my fears
The ones of loneliness and nothingness
I know you all to well
Farther only you would know
I have prepared for so long
Yet my life remains devoid of misses you
I have the answers to the questions that burn in your heart
If only you were here to ask
We could go to the start
And make a future that lasts

I’ve been running from the world
Sometimes walking
If this gets me to you
Then soon shall I forget its cost in your eyes
Right now I am laying with my face in the sand
With one outstretched hand
Won’t you come soon grab me, save me and make me stand?

Despair and fear you seem so near
And forever with you seems like never
Misses where do I find you?
Destiny where do I see you?
You have always been in my heart
Right now these words are all I see
Wont you please save me baby

Breathe to the beat of sirens

The writings on the wall for you to see

Read these words now cos soon they’ll be gone

Watch as ink runs faster than you run from me

A thousand words run circles round you

How can this not move you?

My hands hold you tight as my lips say goodnight

Under this street light our bodies turn to silhouette

Even shadows become distant as we walk away

Footsteps become louder

My heart beats a little faster

You cross me out and leave another mark

In the spaces and places that you have made your own

What do we do when love is not enough?

Things that seem close were never close at all

The colours fade from your eyes faster than this final goodbye

Your words puncher my lungs as a gasp for air

Screaming from the fence line

You lode your gun one last time

Pulling the trigger as you open your mouth

Stand back and watch me bleed

Let this blood stained floor be a reminder

Of this: our magical little world

It’s almost over

As we to walk away

Hearts begin to beat louder

But only in the dark

Shapes that fit the spaces

If you think you’re invincible
I have you in the right place
If you have me smiling just because
Hold me tight and know that you are the reason
You so easily hand over your heart with a smile on your face
It’s in my hands that you find your perfect space

Ill never be far but when I am gone
Ill look down
As my hands glow brighter than the sun
They let me know that you’re the one
This is me with a smile on my face that the world could never replace

This might be lame and you probably think I am such a freak
But if I look at you and forget the words that I wana speak
Its cos your grace, elegance and beauty say what words can’t
I hid from the world only to find you
I burn brighter than ever before
With your hand in mine
We stand on the edge of this world
Falling back we begin to soar

Light the sky

Fireworks so bright they divide the sky
Touching the heavens pausing for a second
The crowd sigh’s as colours begin to dive,
These blues turn to reds and then to greens
I hope you can see what I mean when I say that
This world loves more like a murder scene
Taking what they want and pretending to care
Only to leave the taste of hate in the air

Its only hope that’s kept me waiting
I know this world hates me
So when the lights go out tonight we’ll be long gone
To the end of the world is as far as we can go
With feet dangling from the edge
I wana show you a world that only me and you will ever know

Fireworks that last forever
I would never have imagined
But there you were
Brighter than all the colours
Kiss me quick hold me tight
And watch the heavens
As our lives collide to light up the sky

The boy that once was

Standing on the sand
Ill hold you tight, kiss your head
And say goodnight
The moon is full
Ships in motion move across a great expanse with purpose
In a few hours that seemed like seconds
the sun burns warm against your face
Reflected in your eyes is my heart
You know you had me from the start
With smiles on our faces
We set our feet on a path that is only at the start

Standing on the sand where we first met
The moon is still full
Ships still seemingly move across a great expanse
The sun still rises above the horizon
Only lasting longer than before
The setting is the same except you…
In this silence
My insides scream out to a world
That’s taken you from me
Hoping that you will hear me scream
Ill stay a little longer
Looking back hoping to see you
You never came
With my finger ill write your name with a message in the sand
Coming back everyday hoping for your reply
I stand and sigh
It would feel better to die
I remember the days you made me feel so alive

It takes all I am to believe that ill be fine without you
I don’t know how I got here
And I don’t know how you got there
I just hope your fine
Looking across the sand
I see a boy that once was,
Once was needed
Once was yours
Once was everything
Once was loved

The skyline burns red

The skyline burns red
Soon it will be blue
There’s nothing that we can do
So we sit and watch
As the world paints a picture
Just for me and you
Your eyes are mirrored by this blue
I want you to know
I find a piece of me when I look at you


My world raisers crazy when you are away
And when u stay it turns to calm
It’s in your arms that I burn brightest
It’s not by chance that I have come to this place
As I sit next to you I know ill never forget your face
Through fields we’ll run
Across deserts we’ll dream


As we walk across the sand?
We leave footprints that few could follow
The water moves up
As the sun burns bright against our faces
The waiting is over
Tomorrow will be different cos
On this day I know that I love I know you

As the city sleeps

I am walking through the streets again
There’s just so much on my mind
I have lost my map along the way
So I look to the sky for directions
As my feet take me to the edge of anywhere
Cars race past with purpose
Towards a definite destination
I have nothing for as long as
Your heart stays missing from my hands

The city sleeps tonight
But I dare not close my eyes
It’s the not knowing
It’s the hope
It’s in anticipation that I set myself on fire
With the idea of an invisible you
As time passes by I burn out slowly
Oh beautiful wont you please know me

I don’t want your absence to be forever
I just can’t help but think that u might be never
A dieing destiny is not what I deserve
I just can’t help but think
That Am I looking for something ill never find?
Find me balancing on the edge of this world
As the city sleeps tonight

With fire in our eyes

They talk of love but act in sin
They push the boundaries thinking they’ll win
They forget to choose and begin to feel
Oh look at me I’m such a big deal
You’re just confusing love for what you feel
You never even started to love
You only started to die


We talk of love like no other
It’s in our hearts that we find each other
I’m sorry this took so long
I swear ill write you ten million words before we’re gone
I don’t wana be famous
I don’t wana be known
I just wana be something to someone
If you can take these words and make them your own
Won’t you grab my hand and take me home


With fire in our eyes that will never die
We chase our faith back to the sky
On the backs of eagles we will fly
While Oceans and cities pass us by.
We are the few that find what’s true
It’s in His eyes that I see a picture of you
It might be to much to ask and even harder to find
But all I really want is for a boy like me to love a girl like you

further is not far enough

I am here

And you are out there

Under the moon means you can’t be far

Ill take a plane or drive my car

No mater how far you are

When you are near

Your light makes everything I am so clear

When you’re gone

My light slowly fades to grey

So wont you please stay if only for one more day

As I drive through the city

Your heart calls from a distance

To you my heart will offer no resistance

You are the only road I wana know

You are beautiful to me I want you to know

I wana take your hand and show you to a world

That only me and you will ever know

I know you get cold in the winter nights air

But don’t lose hope cos one day ill be there

Ill Hold you tight

And protect you from this cold night

So Take my hand hold me tight

And together we can stand under this moonlight

Popcorn

Forget the world
Begin to breath
Hold me tight
Only to give this setting a little feeling
Captivated eyes
Stare at the ceiling like it has meaning
One deep sigh brings me closer
As I take a walk through your beautiful eyes
I come to the place that makes you smile
It’s the meaning in the meaningless
It’s the fish that fly in the sky
It’s the clouds that crawl across this land
The world complicates the things that you make simple
Then again it’s not the world
It’s just you

In this moment
Your smile bends my heart to the shape of your mouth
I so easily forget how long it’s taken me to get to this place
So Ill keep my hands tightly held behind my back
Cos all ill ever need can be found in your face
If it seems that we are running out of time
We probably are
But this is all I ever wana know
Cos it’s written on the ceiling above
It’s in the fish that fly in the sky
It’s written in your smile
And it’s written in your beautiful eyes

This Is love this is life

This is love
Ships set sail with sails of innocence intact
As the sun sets on the horizon
Beauty is reflected in your eyes
These are the days I will remember
Just me and you
When this world seemed so far away
Loving you was simple
Day turns to black
And the only evidence of this time
Is my memory and a photograph of me and you

This is life
Me lying on the floor
While breathing slowly
With this last breathe
Ill say I love you
Cos you are the only person that has ever been real to me
This distance is distant
And the sounds are almost silent
But this heart of hope holds on
For something or nothing at all

I am far from where I wana be
And I can’t get there without you
Can’t you see how much I need you right now?
Far apart
Like ships that cross everyday but neva meet
I’m scared ill know you
But neva see you again

If I lose you
Ill lose me
And everything I ever hoped to be

This is love
No this is life

Silent in the silence

Look after you my love
Been gone so many days
Feeling like I never left your side
No one gets me like you do
As tears come streaming down my face
I realize that this is a lost love that I will never replace
By Yahweh’s grace will you only come home
To find your final resting place

Say nothing
That leads to do something
If a heart screams out in the face of difference
Its only then: when we are silent in the silence
That we can hear our hearts whisper

I step outside and off the edge of my world
Letting go of everything but you
The only light in the black of this night
Are stars that shoot across the sky
Against a black canvas of empty space
If you are out there I want you to know
This empty space is your place
Ill never give it away unless you choose to

Paper Message Jet

From this height and distance
I watch the city from the edge of this cliff
Passing headlights look like a thousand setting suns
Smoke on distant hills move to the motion of the wind
This setting is perfection yet it remains meaningless
As long as you are not here with me,
Like the stars that fall around me
You’re just as beautiful and just as bright
Even at this distance

In your absence I write for you
In your absence I think of you
These days are cold and my clothes are wet
From standing in the rain
While throwing this paper jet
Time after time I let them go
Hoping that you’ll get the message and let me know

In anticipation and under this moonlight
I cast a shadow across the skyline
When I reach the end of the line
I just hope I’ve found you
Even if its one second before that time

Will this pretty face ever find its place?

Night falls over the city
As I find you
Walking to nowhere again
Your silhouette
Illuminated by city lights
This pretty face comes with the price of a past
Theses feet have walked in every direction
Only to be embraced by disappointment

Drive with me
To a place where the lake sleeps beneath the moon
Stuck in a stare
On the banks of a lake called I don’t care
Imagers of love, hate and disappointment
Broadcast themselves from the still surface of the water
To do nothing is to live the past over and over again
So I through a stone through the reflections
And watch as imagers scatter in all directions

As long hours take there toll on tired eyes
Hope feels like such a waist
But ill wait
Remember to breath
And then believe
In a future I cannot see

Suicide symphonies

I should have arrived earlier
A lifetime of wondering
Would have been averted
I contemplate life with out a friend
I can’t live at all
Each day goes on for so long
And what you did was so wrong
All that’s left are unanswered questions
And a letter that I don’t wana read

I knocked really hard but no answer
So I used the spare key that you left in the shed
Walking down the hall way
I heard you cock the gun
I screamed wait
While you screamed it’s too late
I hit the floor as the gun went off
Pulling myself to my feet
I walked in to find you on the floor
Not breathing anymore
With white powder on the floor
Was it this curse that gave you the power

Now that you’re gone
I’ll start to love you more
And it’s too late
Was I to busy to even find the time?
I’m sorry
If I could, I would take you away
I would tell you the things that would have made you stay
I’ll just always regret the day I screamed wait
Cos deep down I know it was me that was to late

Love left in the headlights

As time transverses in circular motions
Foregone feelings bring me back
To the site of this invisible car crash

Looking at you upside down and inside out
I take one last look, one deep sigh
As I pull glass fragments from your skin
I say sorry for the inevitability of this car crash
We just never saw the headlights coming
Until our world turned to glass
Just take my hand and say goodbye
Let me walk away without a scratch and watch me die

The heavens start to open as my hands hit the sand
Father come down and get me cos I am a broken man.
Sirens scream past as they sing songs of rescue towards my love
This is all over and I am so done
As the dust suffocates my last remaining breath
My Spirit leaves this place
And I am left wondering
If love could ever say goodbye with a smile on its face?

I Hope You Know your Letting Go

So Throw it away and forget today
If it can't be the same yesterday
For all the times you walked away
For all the times you had nothing to say
When you knew this was all for you
Waiting expectantly was I
As time passes by
I can't wait anymore
But neither can I forget

Letting you go is the only way of keeping you alive!!!!
Please don't break your wings
And never forget how to fly
It's funny how we live for love
Only to let it die
We saw the sunset in the corner of the sky
With its rays reflecting in our eyes
So warm and so hot but that to soon died

I came back to the place where
You took my hand
And started drawing hearts with my fingers in the sand
You took my hand and wrote my name next to yours
That's all gone now; I think it died along with my heart

You've made me loose, you've made me win
You've washed me away and you have made me stay
On the verge of breaking, will you see me mend?
Ill smile
And maybe one day we can be friends

On that day Ill be with you

As water falls from the sky
I run outside
And point my head towards the sky
Rain fills my eyes as my tears hit the ground
It’s now that I realize that pretending is sometimes best
You close your eyes so easily.
As you walk away I turn around
Waiting for you to take one last look
You never did
Was I that easy to forget?
Is this what it’s come to?
You burying me next to your ex boyfriends tomb

When you were near
The sky was always clear
And I can’t remember a day
When I cried for the rain to fill my eyes
You showed me a place were
The summers were never ending
We walked across vertical lines
Leading to outstretched arms
That pulled the setting sun beneath the clouds for all to see

Now that you’re gone I walk round and round in circles
Forgetting which way to go
Ill throw my hands into the air and let this love go
It’ll only be one lifetime before we find our way home
One day ill die
And so will you
And on that day ill be with you

Under your starlit sky

Under your starlit sky
I stand alone
Looking up at the heavens
I wait for you to answer me
The stars look like holes punched
Into a black canvas that is the sky
It’s beautiful like you
Tonight won’t end unless you let it
And this pain won’t leave unless you take it

Father
It takes all that I am to believe
And how you have made believing easy over time
If I put this fragile heart into the creators hands
Will you make me? Will you mold me?
Time hurts most when these moments play over and over
These Feelings are the knives that confuse then kill this heart
I am frustrated, uneasy and tired of trying on my own
Is this you saving me?
Or is this me hurting myself?
On my knees and with hands held high
I’ll scream at the sky
Ill wait here till morning if it means meeting with you
I am ready to take one step if you’ll take two

Searching through the light
This book becomes life
Its pages illuminate the narrow path beneath my feet
It’s here that we meet
It’s here that I see the map of my life in your eyes
It’s at this moment that things seem so simple
I am scared to move if you don’t move me
I am scared of the things I can’t erase
And in this place
While I am without you I’ll die
Under your starlit sky